It's been a month since I have decided, claimed and told my family and friends that I will go to law school this coming June. Believe me, it surprised me as much as the many doubters and confused I have told about it. There is only one question that keeps circulating around these people (well except of course to my family, they have been very supportive about my decision) -- "Why law school?”
Truth is, I cannot expect these people to understand me. I'm a 20-year-old Registered Pharmacist, underage, employed to my mother, happy(sure) and as hard as I admit - lost. I have been crafting my career since I passed the boards last July 2015. No, I have been crafting my career since elementary! I told them I would become a doctor or a lawyer or both. Then I re-craft, and re-craft and re-craft over and over again. That's how lost I was. I didn't know what I want! I thought I did. I was the expected successor of the 3 pharmacies my family has earned for living for many years and it is my pleasure to do good business, to branch out, to make everything big! Initially, I thought about studying Clinical Pharmacy for a year then work a little more then go abroad, earn a dollar then go home here in the Philippines then continue business. I thought, what am I studying for? I cannot apply all the years I studied clinical in the community. At least, not much if not at all. Then I know it was just an option for me. It isn't what I want. I didn't even know what to want anymore.
Then among those months of crafting and re-crafting, my family have seen some potential in me. They know ever since I was a little girl, I never let an argument win over me. I always wanted to get answers right. They keep telling me that I'm the most aggressive one among my siblings. I never say no to any adventures or battles. Years ago, they often tell me I'll make one heck of a good lawyer. I thought it was a joke. I thought not anymore.
Lawyer, huh. For me, it’s not about having a cool profession. You will study and comprehend laws years and years to make people sign contracts/papers or send people to jail. I know many people might have doubted me. From medical school to law school? Far-out. Maybe.. Maybe not. I have never been so certain about anything I want in my career right now than to becoming a great Christian lawyer. In my life, I only dreamed about helping people with the best I could, be very relevant to their lives, bring peace and cure in their hearts. Before I passed the boards, that's what I told God. I could help a lot of people. Let Him make me His instrument. Then I did as pharmacist. It was a dream come true. But honestly, I didn't want to stop there. I know I could help people in my profession as a pharmacist but ever have that feeling that you are missing something? Like there is something far greater that you could do. Then I prayed again and again and again. I asked God to please lead the path for me. He did.
Earlier this year, our family has faced a phase. We trusted people in our business only to find out they were stealing from us for over years! Damn this kind of people. They not only rob huge amount of money from us but they also took away our potential to trust people again. They took our pride when we failed to see real criminals right before our eyes. Then I told myself, never again. Never will I let people live freely, hurt people intentionally for their own gain. I hate seeing innocent people being oppressed. I’m not a saint either but I just don’t like people being taken advantage of. I just don’t like it. I was there when these criminals tried explaining theirselves. I cannot stop talking too tried catching phrases out of their sentences. That’s when I told mom out in the air, “Mom, mag-law kaya ako.”. Never have I seen my mom very supportive about my decision. She was smiling. So was dad, ate and kuya. My family, especially my daddy, dreamed about having a lawyer in the family. I’m so happy to know that it finally felt like an answered prayer not only for my family but most importantly for me.
I prayed to God after that, I was told not to make decisions when I’m too sad or too happy. I wasn’t either but I still prayed. If this is for me, help me have the heart to continue pursuing this. And He answered once again. I know this one is the right path, finally. Up to this date, I am still excited to finally take this big step. I am motivated every day to read notes, prepare for the entrance and enter law school, be brave and become one of the great lawyers this country ever have! Of course, I’m taking it one at a time. Before I get to become a law student, I’m still the hardworking upcoming 1L which first and foremost, I need to pass the entrance exam. Hehehe. Best of luck and happy thoughts!!! <3
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