It started alright. First quarter of the year, though I have been flunking in law school, my recits were awful, my grades were more awful; yet I still managed to just keep going. Gusto ko talaga ma-abogado eh. Nandito na ako. Susuko pa ba? That's what I kept telling myself then. That's what I keep telling myself now. I was accepted to a law organization and that was one of the best decisions I made this year.
But at the end of the academic year, the verdict came. I didn't make it to the next level. My QPI fell short. I couldn't get readmitted again. I was so frustrated, depressed, troubled. The question kept popping my head, "Why?". I did my best. Apparently, it was not enough. But never have I thought that law school was not for me. Who or what can stop me from pursuing my ambition? No one can control us except ourselves, right? So I decided to transfer school. And these are the next quarters.
Second and third quarter of the year. New school, new faces, new friends, new environment. How hard it was to leave everything behind. To not being able to see the same faces everyday. To not being able to be with the same circle always. It was a rough beginning. Half of my heart didn't want it. I've lost interest in my social life. But then that's not what I came here for. So I just put everything, my focus, my all, in law school. And it did bear fruit. My grades weren't that bad anymore. *wink!*
I still hangout with my friends from high school, college and former law school. I could even manage to attend conventions and go on trips! Yup, imagine the breathing I had since I transferred.
That was peaceful quarter of my life. Now we go the last quarter of the year. I finally have adjusted to my new school and new routine. I made new friends! School and work stress are still there but it has been bearable as ever. What seem to be unbearable was the heartbreak I had in this time of the year. Haha.
I've been in love about two or so but at this age, having a broken heart is just horrible. I usually don't get attracted to men easily (*coughs*), I have a lot on my plate, but the last one sure knows lot of shit to get a girl's heart. And sure knows better to leave her hanging and grab another girl. That's just a frickin cycle that never ends.
But if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't be as bold and wise as I am now (when it comes to men, of course). He is just a lesson I have to absorb. No matter how hard it is to easen the rough patch, I just have to keep going. Move forward. I never imagined some prick would consume me this much. It has been three years since I went through moving on stage. It's really tough to go through this again. But God has perfect plan for all of us, right? It might be to save me from a more hurtful situation or to slow things down for me. All I have to do is get through the pain everyday and trust in Him.
Plus it's going to be new year anytime soon. It's a perfect time for new beginning. Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end. So here's to 2018! 2017 made me strong and clever. I couldn't wait to make new beginnings in 2018! :)
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