"Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast." (1 Corinthians 13:4)
We all have definitions of love. We say it, we feel it, we give it. It makes us whole, it keeps us on track. It lives and it lives in our hearts. It could keep sane or.. insane in the most romantic crazy kind. There are several kinds of love. Love for family and friends, love for career, love for that special someone, love for oneself, love for God.. I could enumerate infinite kinds of love all day! Because love is everything. It doesn't occur once a year, it happens to us every single time.
I'm not the perfect person to share about this kinds of thing. You see if you would ask me, I don't have a fine boyfriend(I don't even have one), I don't have the amazing career(yet), My family isn't perfect.. I'm just saying I don't have it all. But can a person be genuinely in love without having much or nothing at all? My answer is, yes!
Love doesn't mean you have to be happy always. But it sure does make you happy, a lot. It could make you become a better person. I've mentioned that there are infinite kinds of love. We could talk about it all day but let me share something that is very common to the people of my age.. Let's talk about love for that special someone.
I don't have a special someone now. But I did considered one person special among the rest. For short, I was in love before. Haha. It was okay. No, it was great. I never felt anything like it before. We had few fun memories together (or at least I considered it fun and a memory). I never expected it would be him bringing me butterflies in my stomach daily. I didn't even notice him when we first met. But that's just added beauty to it. It blossomed to me. I didn't know how it started. I just remembered my friends started talking to me about him. And that's when I looked at him and I "saw" him. He sure was different. I started to realize we have the same interests. There were many surprises the moment I started looking at him. That's when I knew I'm falling for him. Even if I didn't want to. But, really? Can it be stopped? Hell no. I would've if I could've. It got deeper day after day, month after month, year after year. The thing is, I could hardly admit it. I hardly admit to my friends, my family, even to my self! Why? Well, because I said so... Haha. Joke. Because...... I knew it was one-sided. Awwww. Hehehe,
Sadly, it was. There may be hints that tells me he might feel the same (MIGHT!), but clearly, it was just me. I mean, what's new.. Everytime I started looking at a person, catching feelings for someone, they never actually feel the same. Never. I'm not literally ugly, you know. There were quite some guys but they're just not my type :( Eh ganun talaga.
But does my love life ended there? On point, romantically, it did. But fortunately, it gave me an opportunity to look at life on a different angle. Loving something more than something else! There is so much more in life than chasing all the temporaries (Yes, Stacie Orrico haha). I've learned to dress up, chin up, smile up, brighten up not for anybody to notice me. Everything I do now is not for impressing someone but I'm doing this for God and myself. And that is important ♥ I love myself so much I decided not to hold on things that I know are not meant for me. And that's when I learned to live again. I've learned to live. I've learned to love again.
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